Rosebud

pink rose in bud form

The world blurred. Fuzzy pale-green clouds billowed around a tiny sharp object, close-up: a fierce-feeling hyper-tight bulb shape of darker green, poised on a branch. Unmoving, I felt the wave of its power wash out into the air, into me. Slow joy started responding –apprehensive and a little agog at the task looming in this […]

Five Styles of Conative Mastery

purple water lily with bee

I’d forgotten conatus. A new interpretation of it (below) can make learning and action easier – for anybody mastering (or teaching) new skills and knowledge – or anybody interacting with other people to accomplish something, or creating characters in literature, or optimizing a relationship. It was such a surprise to my pride, that I hadn’t remembered the […]

Approaching Solstice

Milky Way over

I’m marveling at gaps in consciousness, thanks to the Milky Way. I saw a picture of it on the web, and I froze. Something said Wait: What’s so strange about this picture? I stared at it, listening. I collected other pictures of it. Still entranced, I researched other cultures’ names for it, other mythologies. Dimly, […]

Protected: The Goldfinch

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Speculative Magical Links

dove - peach w ocean

Unusual worlds are opening. I’ve been journeying along one of my less-traveled paths, returning to a lifelong love of fantastical stories. Clues to my own emerging voice pop out of page and screen. This trip report has links to a few favorites, notes on writing and consciousness, and a little peach-flavored magic realism. The journey into […]

Between the Stars and the Trees

Bronze Vitruvian Man

A new homespun header image went up this morning on the website. I watched it emerge from a dozen favorite images and then simplify itself. I was startled by the symbolic design: Gateways s-t-r-e-t-c-h-i-n-g between heaven and earth, creating a bridge across the void. Like the title page of Alien (more sci-fi in a minute). […]

Deconstruction of Desire

Frog  on lily pad

I feel so wise right now. I’m watching small hopes leap up – able to hear, see, and feel kindly toward them, from a distance. A few days ago, elation surged when I saw an event announcement. It lifted me, like a frog launched from a lily pad. Oh wow, I would love to go […]

Voice II

whale tail

“If I write that, people will think it’s me.” This quote from Amy Tan, in her spirited TED talk about writing fiction, has been singing to me for days. It struck the place in me that’s so focused on integrity, that so loves the principle “say what you mean and do what you say,” that […]

Merit in the Marketplace

doe in the forest, facing the camera

A phenomenal new wordal popped out of the dictionary this morning: the mer root within merit. Turns out it started as sale value, leading to the Latin meretrix (prostitute) and the English meretricious (attractive in a vulgar way). This surprise led to contemplation of merit badges, merit scholars, meritocracies, certificates of merit, earning merit in religious […]

Alchemical Storytellers

conch shell

Just finished redesigning a house. A bank account. A host of motives. Woke up this morning knowing my novella’s main character’s circumstances were all wrong for the plot, mismatched for the themes. Switched it around in a great rush. Then rested, wondering where those first images had come from, why they’d felt right before, even […]

Voice, Format, Audience

silhouette of concert singer

Mercy. Another writing career. The inner machinery of expression – the place I go to inside, to feel words form  –  is changing again. Two worlds are converging, from opposite extremes: (1) shaping subtle inner experience into outer form, and (2) practicing the audience-driven formats of screenplays and novels. The collision is creating a new voice. I didn’t […]

Re-Oriented Spring

three baby robins with open beaks

Rebirth freshens the air, now from a different perspective. My mind’s eye sees Earth tilting, northern hemisphere more warmed and brightened by a fireball, itself hurtling through space at hundreds of thousands of miles per hour in a giant galaxy – a spiral of light among millions. Scoping in closer, I feel, simultaneously, the entry […]

Quadrifocal Valentine Lenses

white swan with sunlit feathers

Until just now, the bracelet I received in the fourth grade, the pink roses in the sixth, the first kiss in the seventh, and a couple of high-school-era mega-crushes, would re-arise in memory clouded by a low vibration – a mix of sheepishness and mild irritation that I’d been so susceptible to biology, culture, and […]

Mythic Reconception

forest with sunlight

My laughter at the cartoon turned heads in the store: a solar system with a red arrow pointing toward Earth saying “You Are Here … If That Helps Any.”  The “here” lasts only for a sub-instant, since we are spinning at unimaginable speeds through unrepeatable space. Locating “You” in a chaotic universe (in ancient myths, a […]

A Kaleidoscope of Women

Gold space galaxy background with flares

Visions of “the feminine” started shape-changing for me this summer, watching Beasts of the Southern Wild. Startling imagery, elaborate mythology, a rich resonant soundtrack, poetic and vivid dialogue – and the unimaginable performance of its tiny girl hero-star – coalesced. Ancient self-images, affections, terrors, and enthusiasms got remembered and rearranged, transformed, even though the surfaces were […]

Seven-Story Forgiveness

pearl and gold opera glasses on sheet music

Every word, every thought, changes along the vibrational scale of consciousness, so that its meaning is different, depending on the speaker’s intent and the listener’s awareness. I wrote about this earlier in relation to gratitude: in the lowest vibrations, “gratitude” feels like helpless indebtedness; in the highest, it expresses the bliss of existence. Forgiveness changes […]

The Animation in Receiving Art

painter's palette with turquoise and persimmon

Three second-hand creative raptures in three days. I feel blessed. Sometimes, opening the heart to another’s art is as marvelous as the inspiration to express. Two days ago, I saw an Oscar-nominated short animation that touched something so deep in me, about yearnings to have my writing matter, that I wept (silently) in a crowded […]

The Weird Self-Help of Sadness

hidden depths of iceberg, in sunlight

I’ve been remembering how freeing, how life-enhancing it is, to allow deep sadness to rise and move – fully aware of its origins and meanings – and notice it slipping into nothingness. In radio stories leading up to today’s Titanic centennial, my attention was caught by the telegrapher on the Californian, who had messaged Titanic that […]

Three Liberating Choices

falcon

A favorite mind-shift, from long ago, recently popped to mind: a three-way option presented by Eckhart Tolle in The Power of Now. He posed the choices, in a conflict, as Accept the situation, Work to change it, or Separate from it – instead of the “normal” “insanity” of down-spiraling in non-stop objections. I got a huge […]

Bliss, Fulfillment, Happiness, Passion

pink roses

Fun to wonder if the apparent convergence of blogs and videos about “find your passion” (links provided below) has been statistically true – or is just a mirror of my own focus. Multiple notes and links led to discussions of this staple of the “consciousness movement” in a compressed time span. Impatient with so many […]

Flicker and Peep

blue marble earth seen from moon

These are the words – flicker and peep – for the play of light and shadow, for the sound of sound, in the felt senses. Waking early, in the cold and dark, feeling a surge to post something more attuned to my deeper life than yesterday’s intellectual outpouring, I notice flames dancing and crackling in […]

You Do the Math (or Not)

emerald: As Above So Below

Getting the giggles about the collision between two emails this morning: one, from webwizard Seth Godin, saying that what we do, in life/business/culture is not math (simple on/off duality), and the other, from a long-ago meditation teacher, pointing out that we live too much from the wrong-headed math of surface interpretation. When I read the Godin […]

Fight, Flight, Freeze, or Flow?

Golden panther

Awoke to a vibration of wistfulness: glad for the relaxed pleasure in encountering everything with soft regard, and glad to feel only a faint rippling awareness of multiple kinds of violence in the world. It was inspiring to notice the ripples, without having them compromise basic well-being – a style of alertness so new I […]

The Ever-Morphing Novella (=Life)

gold butterfly on purple flower

Why do I expect to revise my novella after it’s been published? (I hear this is possible with e-books.) It’s already rewritten itself at least four times since it was conceived last summer. The same could be said of me, still experiencing alterations of perception, inspiration, intent, and relationship with life-as-a-work-of-art. Transformation/Ascension practitioners know about […]

Adaptation: Not Always Second-Hand

hummingbird and orange flower

Once again, a word-origin is revealing a hidden coherence: ap, which becomes apt, adapt, aptitude, adept and inept. It’s about fittedness, fastening two phenomena, one or both of them in motion. Like dancing: the fittedness being between the music and the body, or between two or more bodies, in spontaneous or rehearsed choreography (on a […]

Creativity’s Hidden Gateways

ruby gem

Several new emails in the past 24 hours have touted creativity programs and ideas. It’s hot. Everybody’s been doing it, for a few years now – even my hypercosmic musician friends (and strangers) all over the country. I can see the validity: they’ve felt the inner music, and know it, and have succeeded with it; […]

It’s 2012. And . . .

dolphin smile

The public craziness of this calendar year may call up uncomfortable reactions, everywhere, especially with geological and public-affairs news shifting the landscape of survival. Every reaction – fearfulness masked as scolding and cruelty, anger masked as hatred and contempt, sorrow in its pure form and in disguises like remorse or regret – offers wonderful realizations […]

Divine Nature Explained (for here)

deep violet lotus

If your soul hums with knowing you’re made of the first breath rippling on the waters of the Void, made of the energies of the Void and the starlight spinning out from there, you need no explanation. The word “divine” is a different word for every speaker and listener. To share its meaning in this […]

Accept What?

luscious white early-blooming lotus

“Accept what is” – a buzz-phrase floating through the transformation culture – carries wildly different meanings, depending on speaker and listener. In its most liberated, creative sense, it translates as “allowing one’s inner vantage point to center in, and perceive/experience everything through the lens of, an awareness so expansive that it notices all apparent phenomena […]

First Wordals

pink lotus bud

Wordals – as word-portals – evolved in my writing practice as mind-unlocking gateways into higher/deeper states of awareness. Unlocking the traps of words frees the mind into a more vast experience of being alive. (A favorite discovery, for example, was the origin of the word ego, in German, Latin, and English, and its Sanskrit correlates – all described below.) […]

The Nature of Writing and Editing

lotus seed pod

A velvety pastel lotus blooms, eventually, from a seed case. Bees, in a scouting party for a new home, do a waggle dance to signal their choice of locations. In my universe, this is speech, writing in water and air. In this wayof feeling, cave paintings of Lascaux feel newly alive, ancient gematria more shimmering, pictograms more […]

Soul-Sense Meditation (notes)

golden enlightenment lotus

One morning in mid-2011 I experienced a convergence of thirty years’ worth of inner-development techniques, plus – and this is what thrilled me – a  new sequence of inner movement that allowed all the techniques, in combination, to accelerate the clarification of old material, enhance compassionate receipt of its wisdom, and expand a sense of […]

The Opening

violet lotus with golden pod

Hilariously, I “open” this website – all about being original, alive, and aware, in the moment – with one of the oldest conventions of public speakers, from elementary school onward: the etymology of the title. Turns out it works pretty well. “Open”  is from upo, meaning under, up from under, or over, which aren’t contradictory at […]